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Now that the semester is coming to a close, I will have some time to get creative with things other than theorizing about the world around me. Here is something I threw together with some online magnetic poetry. Not on my desktop right now, so couldn't make the result into a pretty picture. Tried to do it in paint and it turned out all shitty. Enjoy!  

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let water whisper
bare as language is
and after life sleeps,
lie languid over dreams

She left pieces

"Fifteen ways to stay alive" by Daphne Gottlieb

Fifteen ways to stay alive
by Daphne Gottlieb


1. Offer the wolves your arm only from the elbow down. Leave tourniquet space. Do not offer them your calves. Do not offer them your side. Do not let them near your femoral artery, your jugular. Give them only your arm.

2. Wear chapstick when kissing the bomb.

3. Pretend you don’t know English.

4. Pretend you never met her.

5. Offer the bomb to the wolves. Offer the wolves to the zombies.

6. Only insert a clean knife into your chest. Rusty ones will cause tetanus. Or infection.

7. Don’t inhale.

8. Realize that this love was not your trainwreck, was not the truck that flattened you, was not your Waterloo, did not cause massive hemorrhaging from a rusty knife. That love is still to come.

9. Use a rusty knife to cut through most of the noose in a strategic place so that it breaks when your weight is on it.

10. Practice desperate pleas for attention, louder calls for help. Learn them in English, French, Spanish: May Day, Aidez-Moi, Ayúdame.

11. Don’t kiss trainwrecks. Don’t kiss knives. Don’t kiss.

12. Pretend you made up the zombies, and only superheroes exist.

13. Pretend there is no kryptonite.

14. Pretend there was no love so sweet that you would have died for it, pretend that it does not belong to someone else now, pretend like your heart depends on it because it does. Pretend there is no wreck — you watched the train go by and felt the air brush your face and that was it. Another train passing. You do not need trains. You can fly. You are a superhero. And there is no kryptonite.

15. Forget her name.

Sarah Kay's "If I Should Have a Daughter"

Sarah Kay at TED: Spoken word "If I Should Have a Daughter"

Click on the above link to see a video of Kay's amazing spoken word poetry. The text of the first poem, "If I Should Have a Daughter" is below.

If I should have a daughter, instead of Mom, she's gonna call me Point B, because that way she knows that no matter what happens, at least she can always find her way to me. And I'm going to paint solar systems on the backs of her hands, so she has to learn the entire universe before she can say, "Oh, I know that like the back of my hand." And she's going to learn that this life will hit you hard in the face, wait for you to get back up just so it can kick you in the stomach. But getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air. There is hurt here that cannot be fixed by Band-Aids or poetry. So the first time she realizes that Wonder Woman isn't coming, I'll make sure she knows she doesn't have to wear the cape all by herself. Because no matter how wide you stretch your fingers, your hands will always be too small to catch all the pain you want to heal. Believe me, I've tried. "And, baby," I'll tell her, don't keep your nose up in the air like that. I know that trick; I've done it a million times. You're just smelling for smoke so you can follow the trail back to a burning house, so you can find the boy who lost everything in the fire to see if you can save him. Or else find the boy who lit the fire in the first place, to see if you can change him." But I know she will anyway, so instead I'll always keep an extra supply of chocolate and rain boots nearby, because there is no heartbreak that chocolate can't fix. Okay, there's a few heartbreaks that chocolate can't fix. But that's what the rain boots are for. Because rain will wash away everything, if you let it. I want her to look at the world through the underside of a glass-bottom boat, to look through a microscope at the galaxies that exist on the pinpoint of a human mind, because that's the way my mom taught me. That there'll be days like this. ♫ There'll be days like this, my momma said. ♫ When you open your hands to catch and wind up with only blisters and bruises; when you step out of the phone booth and try to fly and the very people you want to save are the ones standing on your cape; when your boots will fill with rain, and you'll be up to your knees in disappointment. And those are the very days you have all the more reason to say thank you. Because there's nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline, no matter how many times it's swept away. You will put the wind in winsome, lose some. You will put the star in starting over, and over. And no matter how many land mines erupt in a minute, be sure your mind lands on the beauty of this funny place called life. And yes, on a scale from one to over-trusting, I am pretty damn naive. But I want her to know that this world is made out of sugar. It can crumble so easily, but don't be afraid to stick your tongue out and taste it. "Baby," I'll tell her, "remember, your momma is a worrier, and your poppa is a warrior, and you are the girl with small hands and big eyes who never stops asking for more." Remember that good things come in threes and so do bad things. And always apologize when you've done something wrong. But don't you ever apologize for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining. Your voice is small, but don't ever stop singing. And when they finally hand you heartache, when they slip war and hatred under your door and offer you handouts on street-corners of cynicism and defeat, you tell them that they really ought to meet your mother.

Through A Window of Indecision

Written 4/15/2010 as a revision of a previous poem. Look, I can do postmodern poetry! Short line free verse.

Through A Window of Indecision

you see
unexpectedly
pass by without
hitch in step
presumably awkward
exchanges avoid
a void
unintentional
eye contact

look away then
back make sure
you face a face you
recognize
the one you
said those
words to
but someone else
does it now

breath caught
in chest
heart beats
irregular, you stop
passing
halting

stop.

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Streamers

It's been so long since I've been home. I've been gone..I've been gone for way too long..

Streamers
by sofiadventure

Today I have all the blinds angled open
In the hope
That the wonder outside
Will shine its light
Into the cracks of my heart
That just can't close today

I guess that my dreams
Broke all the stitches
As it swelled to this mound in my chest
Full of hope
And it's so hard to convince myself to keep eating
When my insides are facing the wide open seams
Of this muscle

Like the dishes in the kitchen
Fill my sink with the stink
Of being left to wait too long
And I'm listening hard to know I'm still breathing
Through the cracks in my heart
That drape my lungs like the streamers
Of my fourth grade birthday party
Where I said I wouldn't play
Because I knew that I would lose
Because my heart was hanging heavy and loose
The words which set the pace for every game
I haven't played since that day
I have been trying to tell myself
It's not too late
To learn that I don't want to race
Because I can't bear the tears
In my heart strings
That come
From leaving somebody behind

And I remember when I was 5 years old
Standing on a chair to reach the kitchen stove
And burning the skin of my elbow
As I tried to fry
Breakfast for my mother
While she lay sick in bed with
The voices in her head
Telling her she wasn't enough

And I remember filling that cup
With cordial straight from the bottle
Because I didn't know that we could be too sweet
unless we watered down what we gave

And I didn't know that the foundation of my faith
Was based
On my mother watching Jesus
Helping her to dry the dishes
And that when I measured the weight of that diagnosis
My prayers would turn to wishes
Floating like dried up dandelions
Away from me

And I was eight years old when I realized
that maybe my friends didn't fear
the same look
in their mothers eyes
when they went behind themselves and shined
with the reflection of the tears
of fear in my eyes
because I knew that she could hear
all of her own voices
But not mine.